http://vbmods.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] vbmods.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] wordsontongue2010-07-31 03:32 pm
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The Observer for [livejournal.com profile] afra_schatz

Title: The Observer
Author: [livejournal.com profile] koulagirl666
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] j_ryder448
Request: Humor, guys being guys, contemporary AUs, big fan of blokish!Orlando, Karl and/or Bernard as supporting characters
Disclaimer: This didn't really happen, and I don't mean to pretend it did, or for this to reflect on Viggo and Sean in any way.
Summary: AU - If Viggo and Sean had never met. Viggo's a never-quite-made-it indie actor, among other things, and Sean is an enigma.



Everyone has their story. His is probably more complex and nuanced than most - people tend to go about their day, looking for their next meal, their next job, their next purchase, with little thought or complication. He seems to have taken a side trip; he's never in at the same time every week, and sometimes I miss him, or he doesn't stop even to drink his coffee before leaving. He's never well-dressed, exactly, though he isn't unkempt or dirty; he tends towards loose sweaters and jeans, which look worn but aren't ragged. I suspect he works in the industry, like so many of us around here, because he's often carrying a sheaf of paper which, I have seen, is tagged and usually layered with colour - a script, still in development, perhaps, or altered on the fly. I don't recognise him; this is not unusual to me, though it is intriguing that he seems familiar to me.

Today he seems to want to sit; maybe he has a rare afternoon to himself, or he needs to work but his home is too loud, like mine. It is summer, and it is school holidays, so the café is rather more full than usual. There are seats outside, but the wind is cool and the way he holds his papers says that they aren't bound; I have a table to myself in the back, where the light is artificial and dim, and the seats are cushioned. I like to sit here, because few people notice me watching them, and I'm usually undisturbed. He stands, a little awkwardly, with his head tilted, and his voice is foreign - English, but I don't know more than that. He asks if the seat furthest from me is free; I smile, and clear my own script out of his way.

His name is Sean; he's in talks for a television pilot, and they're serious enough that he wanted to meet the creatives before letting his agent talk for him. Today's script is what they have so far; whether his role changes depends on whether he agrees to sign. He's not sure; he doesn't want to be the rough and ambiguous soldier, and he doesn't want to be typecast. I ask how much of that kind of work he has done, and he laughs. He says he is sharp, and it feels like a role he's spent his life playing. I would never have cast him as a warrior, a soldier, a fighter. A lover, perhaps; now that I see him closely, I can see how his easy smile and crinkled eyes would appear earnest, or seductive, depending on the light. His face has character. It is not lined so much as textured; he would be a good model, if I painted people, and perhaps it would not be so criminal to hide his green eyes behind black and white film. He knows much, too; he knows I am distracted, and he wants to know what I do. I tell him I am an artist. We talk about art, a lot of which he thinks is pretentious, and then we talk about sport, because it interests him.

He finishes his coffee and thanks me for sharing my table; he is gone and he did not ask my name. Orlando laughs at me when I pay for my pastry and afternoon's refills, and he asks whether the story I had made for Sean matched. I do like Orlando, even though I had him cast as a dancer before he told me about his accident, and I am not usually as wrong as he expects me to be after that revelation. I tell him that Sean's story isn't complete; he never talked about himself. Orlando knows; he has tried to ask Sean to the club he likes, but Sean doesn't answer.

**

Some time passes before I see Sean again; I have laid out my book to be published, and I don't deny that there is some of Sean in the words I have chosen for my pictures. I wonder whether he signed the contract for the pilot; if he is filming then I would not see him, or if he went home. The weather is starting to turn; it isn't much cooler, but there is more rain and the sun is more often hidden behind clouds that mute its rays to a soft glow. I have made many lives for Sean in my thoughts; I give him a girlfriend, a wife, a family, a dog.

Today, I have a nut Danish, which is one of Bernard's secret specialties. Bernard has owned this café for as long as I have been coming here; he says it is something to fall back on when nobody wants him for their movies. I think he likes to have something to do when he is not on a project, because he pays Karl to bake every morning, but comes in himself when he can, and more than once has Karl come to my table to wait until he is allowed back in the kitchen.

Sean comes in when I have only begun to eat; he smiles at Orlando and his coffee is ready quickly. He asks again if he can sit with me, but this time he sits next to me and asks why I am always here. I tell him about my son, and how I used to like to read without loud music and game noises. He says it must not be much quieter here, but his face relaxes, the wrinkles near his eyes even out, and he stops turning the paper cup around in his hands. He has children, I see, and he understands. He says he doesn't see them much; three girls, and the youngest still in school. They are back home, and live with their mothers. He says we do what we have to so we can give them as much as possible. I agree. He wonders whether it's worth it, or if a good talking to and a night without dinner would be just as good, but he smiles like he doesn't mean it when the sadness in his voice means he does wonder. I tell him it is.

He drinks his coffee and asks what I am eating. I share, because he's never heard of a Danish without custard. It feels intimate, as if we have been friends for a decade rather than weeks. Orlando brings him a mug and pours him coffee too, and then kicks me as he leaves. Sean is telling me about the television pilot, and how different it is to working on a film. He is wearing a shirt, white and Prussian blue, and his hair touches the collar. He still does not look like a soldier, but I can see what he will use to drive him; he wants to protect, and he loves as if his life were an epic. He tells me I am a fool dreamer, and I ask him if I can take his picture. "As long as you let me buy you a proper dinner," he says. I wonder what he means, but Orlando grins as I give him my money and wishes us a profligate evening. It is not the kind of word he uses, and I hear Karl telling him to pipe down as Sean and I leave, together. It is the kind of word Karl uses. I revise my story for them both; they are closer than I had realised. I always have much to learn about everyone I make stories for, and usually only a small amount of time to refine them.

Sean tells me to stop thinking and start walking; I offer my car, but he waits patiently for me to catch up to him. I do not make him wait long, for even if he gives me all the time in the world to know his story, this may be a time when it is better to play a part than to watch from a shadow.
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[personal profile] afra_schatz 2010-08-01 11:30 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, this is quite delightful, thank you so much!

I love your inital description of Sean - Viggo manages to both put a clear picture of what he looks like as well as how he behaves (or at least how Viggo interprets it) into my head.

I don't recognise him; this is not unusual to me, though it is intriguing that he seems familiar to me.

Oh, this is quite intriguing - does Viggo think he recognises him because he has indeed seen him in a movie before or is it because there is just something to Sean that Viggo can automatically relate to? Love this.

I ask how much of that kind of work he has done, and he laughs. He says he is sharp, and it feels like a role he's spent his life playing.

This is great too. Not only can I clearly picture this conversation between the two of them, they also sound absolutely like them in this, Sean in particular.

I tell him I am an artist. We talk about art, a lot of which he thinks is pretentious, and then we talk about sport, because it interests him.

Hah :). I quite like this little bit of "road bump" in there so to speak, even though it isn't really one, is it? I mean Viggo could have found it slightly off putting to be almost accused to be part of that pretenious bunch but I think he finds it far more compelling that Sean is just honest about his opionions and no doubt can express that very eloquently, too.

I have made many lives for Sean in my thoughts

I adore this line. Isn't this what art - and probably devotion, too - all comes down to?

He says we do what we have to so we can give them as much as possible. I agree. He wonders whether it's worth it, or if a good talking to and a night without dinner would be just as good, but he smiles like he doesn't mean it when the sadness in his voice means he does wonder.

So much quiet sadness in there, but acceptance too. And how the two of them can relate so closely on yet another level.

and he loves as if his life were an epic

My absolute favourite line in this. Soso gorgeous, I am at a loss for words.

I love how quiet all of this is, how nothing seems to be a big deal even though it probably is. And as far as Bernard and Karl and Orlando are concerned - all of whom I adore here - it's quite the same with them, too, isn't it? That Viggo is so steadfastly unrushed about getting to know Sean says so much about him and it shows in how he describes everyone else, how he pays so much attention to detail (love the Karl/Orlando bit at the end and the discussion about words, great bit of off hand characterisation there).

Thank you so much for this, whoever you are!
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I'm glad you like it!! It was a pleasure to write for you.

[identity profile] alex-quine.livejournal.com 2010-08-01 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes the simple emotions and the ordinary stuff of life that contains within it the possibility of big things, are the hardest things to portray well, but this small world draws us in. In part this is because Viggo's curiosity becomes the vehicle for the reader to enter into the cosy scenes in the cafe. There is personal pain, doubt, but it's mostly in the background and the cafe is a place of warmth and affection without expectations. Charming and filled with quiet hope.
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!! I'm glad you found your way in to watch this unfold.

[identity profile] j-flattermann.livejournal.com 2010-08-01 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I love this very qualm and quiet running of the story, there is enough drama in it still without making much drama about it. Just as it is in live. Wonderful fic. Thank you so much for this beautiful read.
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!! *hugs*

[identity profile] shegollum.livejournal.com 2010-08-01 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"He says he is sharp..." ==> *big grin*

"he loves as if his life were an epic"

What an interesting diarama you have built. you've placed all of them there and they are so interesting and yet you tease with what you tell. beautifully done!
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!! And yes, they're all in there at this time in their lives.

[identity profile] stormatdusk.livejournal.com 2010-08-02 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
the sun is more often hidden behind clouds that mute its rays to a soft glow

I have made many lives for Sean in my thoughts


this is a fascinating glimpse into a world that makes me want to be a part of it. so many details, but deftly given and subtle. i felt like i was sitting at the next table. wonderful! oh - - and i need to place an order for a large dose of testosterone; could you please send karl over? ;)
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:08 pm (UTC)(link)
You're welcome any time! ;)

[identity profile] itstonedme.livejournal.com 2010-08-08 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
This was wonderfully written. So compact, and yet so full, this story of yours. So many back stories alluded to, some many spinoffs that are possible. This was a very engaging read, and Sean in the Sharpe years and Viggo in his indie years -- prime specimens, oh yeah.
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh yes, we could be in and out of these people's lives forever and still not have explored everything. I'm glad you liked it!!

[identity profile] mooms.livejournal.com 2010-08-13 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I liked the unhurried pace of this and the way it takes time to unfold. There are so many good lines, which have already been quoted, but it was totally charming and a delight to read.
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-09-01 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!! =D

[identity profile] peersrogue.livejournal.com 2010-09-12 09:28 am (UTC)(link)
Fascinating, you have created such a beautiful universe, gentle and thoughtful. All the time and space necessary for our two darling men to meet and get close.
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[identity profile] koulagirl666.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:47 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, yes, and I can assure you that they got very close indeed. =)